You have to be willing and ready to let people see you as inhuman, and all that entails. I don't think you have the psychological bent for it that I do, and I don't mean that as an insult.

I probably shouldn't have said anything.

Whatever reasons I had for retiring sound flimsy to me now. It was a bad idea. I had to fight to put things back together, after, although I've done it well and moved on now. I'll keep on doing this until it kills me, and I'm beginning to think that's a long way off.